What if?

Hey there, it’s been a long time I know.  Thanks for hanging in there with me.  I have been writing, just not getting it on here. 

There have been a few things going on in my life and have made it hard to get anything to the computer.  Firstly there has been work, as the world starts to open the shipping business is busier which gives me more work to do.  I am thankful for employment but come on, I need my writing time too.  We have also been able to see more of our family members and actually do a little babysitting for their parents.  I am grateful for the time with the kids and thankfully, we can go on as if no time has passed except they have matured and gotten taller!

The biggest news is my wife and I took a long vacation!  She retired the beginning of July and two weeks after that we took a two week road trip.  We went through eight states and did 4000 miles on the truck.  It was fantastic, tiring and scary at different times. Which made for some great memories.  Good news is I was so busy seeing all the things that I barely noticed my birthday!  YAY!  We were out of range for cell service and so I wasn’t getting the reminders every 3 seconds with text messages and I couldn’t access Facebook either.  It was more relaxing than ever on my birthday this year.  Not too many places you can go and be out of range thankfully Yellowstone is one of them, may have to go back next year!

One of the stops we made on our trip was Las Vegas, it was mostly a stopover because we were tired of driving as we really tried to stay away from super crowded cities.  Every town we were in we tried to support the small businesses as those have been hit the hardest with the pandemic.  This is not to say we did not go to any Starbucks, I did have to get my free birthday treat.  We did have several great coffees and treats at small coffee shops along the way (the cinnamon roll in Utah!).  Anyway, there will be more about the vacation in a future post. 

My wife is gluten intolerant, so the morning we were leaving Vegas she found a cute little bakery that was a five star rating and was gluten free.  Senza GF Bakery if you are so inclined to go there.  The baked goods and the quiche were outstanding, not to mention they had a lot of variety! 

I needed to eat before we hit the road to Red Rocks for a look around, so we sat and enjoyed our food rather than rush out and eat while driving. 

As we were sitting there, a woman from the back area came out and was staring at me, not in a rude way and soon she walked over and said, “You probably noticed me staring at you, so I thought I should come say something.  You look a lot like my friend and I thought for sure you were her” we chatted for a minute and her friend lived in Utah I think, she said I could have been her friends twin.

Growing up I got this a lot, someone was always asking if I had a twin and telling me that I looked like another girl near the area I grew up in.  I have always wondered, always, if I have siblings out there and since meeting my bio father and him being a little sketchy when I asked if there were more kids than just my sister and I.  I decided to chat more with this woman, not wanting this moment to get away from me, because well, What if? 

I asked to speak with her, she came to the front and I asked her if her friend was adopted?  Because I am and I never know when I might find another relative.  She thought about it, longer than normal I felt, (maybe she was thinking about the woman’s parents and family) said no she wasn’t adopted.  We went on to talk about my search, the family I have found and the large adoption community I am a part of. 

It was amazing putting myself out there to ask the obvious question.  I knew I would have been kicking myself later if I had not asked her for more information.  No matter how long I live, I will always be looking and searching.  The what if’s are out there, I am not missing any more opportunities.

Thanks for reading.

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